This deck is a culmination of everything I’ve ever done in my entire life, from teaching elementary school art , to messing around with graphic design and websites, marketing and advertising, to storytelling and journaling, to card creation, etc.! I have had so many random opportunities to work in so many different fields, and IContinue reading “Inner Child Artist Oracle is Done, Diddly-Un!!!!”
Category Archives: this lump in my throat
Losing Her
I am so very heartbroken. It’s all bad guys. When I went out to feed this morning, Calypso was unresponsive and she had white stuff leaking from her nose. I grabbed a halter and called the emergency vet. I made her walk around the yard, she didn’t want to move much, but she never laidContinue reading “Losing Her”
Let’s Play Catch Up…
2020 has been fucking eventful, to say the very least. It has been nothing short of dramatic; that much is true! We bought our first home and moved into it in mid- March, the very same day we were both laid off of work due to the Coronavirus pandemic. It has been very stressful, butContinue reading “Let’s Play Catch Up…”
Drawing is the perfect distraction!
What in the hell would I do, on those days when my head spins and spins with shit I can’t control, without art to distract me? I would definitely be on lock down somewhere, just sayin’. It’s also a good reminder. We can thank God for our creativity on the days when we can’t findContinue reading “Drawing is the perfect distraction!”
The Dearly Departed Spread
I did the Dearly Departed Spread for my dad. It turned out amazing! And so brutally on point. 1- Purpose in life: Magician (My mom’s birth card): “My purpose was to manifest every single one of your mother’s wants and needs that could be wanted or needed under the sun…” 2- What was I toContinue reading “The Dearly Departed Spread”
Sorry for all the blood!
I am so sorry for bleeding all over you. I’ve never been so bereft in all my life. I’ve always been able to find the silver lining in the storm clouds, but this time is different. This time, the silver lining does not exist. It’s all black and white, and there is no gray, letContinue reading “Sorry for all the blood!”
I wrote my Dad’s obituary! 😭
Being the first born child sucks ass! Not only did I arrange for my Dad’s cremation today, I was also appointed as planner of his Celebration of Life and also as writer of his obituary. I only recorded it so that I could type it quickly without looking back-and-forth at my little piece of paper.Continue reading “I wrote my Dad’s obituary! 😭”
Art therapy is the shit, (if anything is at this point…)
On the evening of my dad’s death, I was drawing. I was practicing facial expressions, like I do every night, and I usually throw them away, but this night was different. What I drew on this night reminded me of what I gave my dad for Father’s Day last year… it had similar faces, butContinue reading “Art therapy is the shit, (if anything is at this point…)”
Drawing it out… 😭
My dad has been in ICU for a week now. He has to a have a defibrillater implanted into his heart tomorrow morning, while his blood pressure stays at a very low rate. I’m worried. I am so fucking scared of facing life on Earth without him. I can’t stand the thought of losing him,Continue reading “Drawing it out… 😭”
Characters just fall off my brush!
This is a video of my artwork from 2016 to present.
“Baby, you’ve been prolific!”
Although I always try to see the good in other people, sometimes it is necessary to defend yourself with truth. The proof is always in the pudding. According to one person, (whom shall remain unnamed and unseen): “Since when do you work?! You’ve been busy sitting around and doing nothing while your husband works hisContinue reading ““Baby, you’ve been prolific!””
My Life is Crashing Down With My Daddy
Death is so final. I have always had so much hope that with modern technology and medical advances, that my dad would be fine. I’ve never been the best at handling terminal illness and death. And the death of someone close to me nearly destroys me. I’m still trying to deal with the loss ofContinue reading “My Life is Crashing Down With My Daddy”
I Drew Me and My Pops!
I drew me with my dad! And I loved it! I need to draw more of these because these make my heart sing. I need to find one from when I was a little girl, and draw it! How fun!!!! Step 1 And here I am with my mama!
She Thinks She’s a Fucking Kite
I drew my niece tonight. She didn’t call me for Mother’s Day. She has called me every Mother’s Day since her mom died, three years ago, but she didn’t call this year. And I know why… It doesn’t make me happy. I used to think she was a heroin addict, but I know now thatContinue reading “She Thinks She’s a Fucking Kite”
The Lifestyle You Ordered is Out of Stock!
A collage of my family that I made for my mom… only the quote isn’t on the real one. But the quote sums everything up nicely. 😭
Once My Sister, Now My Muse
Art has gotten me through the hardest of times. When my sister died three years ago, I was at a loss. I mean a literal loss of everything, including my mind, and especially my mind. It was a “Tower moment.” The problem was that I had never even considered her death before and I justContinue reading “Once My Sister, Now My Muse”