The Dearly Departed Spread

I did the Dearly Departed Spread for my dad. It turned out amazing! And so brutally on point. 1- Purpose in life: Magician (My mom’s birth card): “My purpose was to manifest every single one of your mother’s wants and needs that could be wanted or needed under the sun…” 2- What was I to… Read More

Sorry for all the blood!

I am so sorry for bleeding all over you. I’ve never been so bereft in all my life. I’ve always been able to find the silver lining in the storm clouds, but this time is different. This time, the silver lining does not exist. It’s all black and white, and there is no gray, let… Read More

I wrote my Dad’s obituary! 😭

Being the first born child sucks ass! Not only did I arrange for my Dad’s cremation today, I was also appointed as planner of his Celebration of Life and also as writer of his obituary. I only recorded it so that I could type it quickly without looking back-and-forth at my little piece of paper.… Read More

Art therapy is the shit, (if anything is at this point…)

On the evening of my dad’s death, I was drawing. I was practicing facial expressions, like I do every night, and I usually throw them away, but this night was different. What I drew on this night reminded me of what I gave my dad for Father’s Day last year… it had similar faces, but… Read More

Drawing it out… 😭

My dad has been in ICU for a week now. He has to a have a defibrillater implanted into his heart tomorrow morning, while his blood pressure stays at a very low rate. I’m worried. I am so fucking scared of facing life on Earth without him. I can’t stand the thought of losing him,… Read More

“Baby, you’ve been prolific!”

Although I always try to see the good in other people, sometimes it is necessary to defend yourself with truth. The proof is always in the pudding. According to one person, (whom shall remain unnamed and unseen): “Since when do you work?! You’ve been busy sitting around and doing nothing while your husband works his… Read More

The 🥃 is in the 🍮

This is a video of my artwork from 2016 to present. Read More

My Life is Crashing Down With My Daddy

Death is so final. I have always had so much hope that with modern technology and medical advances, that my dad would be fine. I’ve never been the best at handling terminal illness and death. And the death of someone close to me nearly destroys me. I’m still trying to deal with the loss of… Read More