Do your shadow work. Walk the talk. A better world, and a better humanity, starts with you.

I value loyalty. I value truth. I value the heart and the love that is possible through it… and I move through the world in a way that builds people. Not in a way that breaks them. I don’t like to criticize people, and if I do say something, it is always with good intentions, and for them to see a bigger picture. This does not come as judgment or in statement form. It will always come in the form of a question. Also, It is never for me, or even about me. I already know the answer when I ask the question.

And, honestly, I am an INFJ and I am sensitive as fuck and in tune with other’s emotions. I’m in tune with everybody, but myself, sometimes and right now I’m feeling very confused. I try to think that I don’t judge, but it is inherent in my nature to judge situations. However, whatever my judgment is, I will still walk forward with HOPE and try to bring light to any situation- because I know that the opposite doesn’t create anything, and I’m creating my world. I realize that everybody is conditioned and a lot of people don’t even realize it when they have reactions to things, however those people will see what I’m seeing, just not at the same time.

I can’t help being like this. I should just stay out of other people’s drama. I mean, it would serve me better if I acted on behalf of myself, like so many do in the world. I would be much better off. Just saying. Because I would’ve done my schoolwork and I would’ve done some of my own work today- but no. I always walk with love, and talk with love, and try to bring clarity to things that I know people do not understand. And I find it easy to apologize. Even if I’m right . But only if I truly love you. A lot of people simply can’t and simply won’t.

When you look at things in reality, and in the context of things, they are always fucking tiny. All of it is tiny. These are tiny things and they’re being made to look big. But you have to get out a fucking microscope to see them. After all, this is shadow shit. People forget that I am a mirror. I can never forget, whether I like it or not.

I tend to pay attention to patterns, and when I see a pattern played out many times, I will cut that situation off, or I will eagerly await it. Again, this depends on how much I love you. Often, if you ignore patterns, you will become a part of that pattern because patterns are patterns, after all- and these things repeat until they are changed. I tend to think about these things as I’m awaiting my inherent “patterning” because the next thing I know… I’ll be the one that is replaceable and thrown into the garbage can, and I don’t wanna even take chances like that with people- because I’ve been thrown into the garbage can enough-In fact, I’ll go throw myself in now.

Maybe I’m not supposed to stay friends with people forever. Maybe that’s how it’s always been and maybe you are the same? Something about seasons…

Maybe we are all just trying to be something better than what we were yesterday, and/ or maybe we are just trying to be better than what other people told us we are. I wanna be friends with people who want to be better. When people know better, they do better, and they can be more conscious of the way that they move through the world, and of the energy that they bring , and that they take, with them… Not people who want to dwell on the negativity or perpetuate the doom.

And maybe it’s just that I am not really of this world, and maybe it’s just that I am unrealistic and have too high hopes for humanity that are unfounded and unfindable.

Without hope and love though, why the fuck do I exist?

I am going to give you a little secret about human behavior and character- something that I’ve always known intuitively, but that I have recently confirmed through psychology. When people call you out on something- and that call is so loud, even deafening- that it makes you unable to think, is it really that person calling you out on your behavior, or are they calling you out on their behavior? It takes one to know one is all I’m gonna say.

Sort of like the pot calling the kettle black- it’s something that you don’t like about other people that is inherent in you. My arms get tired of holding up this mirror. Maybe it’s time for you to hold it up?

Are you seeing how my brain works? This post is not about anyone in particular, rather it is about humanity and how we treat each other. We need to be better and we need to do better. And we need to treat each other better and handle situations with softer gloves. Something about a glass house…

#scorpiomoon