Category Archives: matter of the heart

Yep. It is what it is. And gravity is everything.

Trigger Warning:I’m just giving you guys a heads up that there is change coming and if I’m not on here, I’m just taking care of it quietly. But shit is changing. ♥️ I have been spiraling, literally, into a darkness that I’m just fucking tired of going into, without a flashlight and an atlas. IContinue reading “Yep. It is what it is. And gravity is everything.”

Inner Child Artist Oracle is Done, Diddly-Un!!!!

This deck is a culmination of everything I’ve ever done in my entire life, from teaching elementary school art , to messing around with graphic design and websites, marketing and advertising, to storytelling and journaling, to card creation, etc.! I have had so many random opportunities to work in so many different fields, and IContinue reading “Inner Child Artist Oracle is Done, Diddly-Un!!!!”

So Nervous!

I get to see my Mustang yearling today for the first time since June 1st, when I took him to a locally known professional Mustang trainer. Finally. It costs a lot, but he’s worth every penny! We’ve had a rough start. I allowed other people to tell me what I was capable of doing onContinue reading “So Nervous!”

Losing Her

I am so very heartbroken. It’s all bad guys. When I went out to feed this morning, Calypso was unresponsive and she had white stuff leaking from her nose. I grabbed a halter and called the emergency vet. I made her walk around the yard, she didn’t want to move much, but she never laidContinue reading “Losing Her”

Inner Child Artist

Y’all… I have been working on an oracle deck called Inner Child Artist since early 2018. I got the promo deck on the day my father passed. Needless to say, I had to put it down for a while until my heart could handle it again. I miss my dad so much! It’s hurts toContinue reading “Inner Child Artist”

A Family Reunion and Another Funeral

Life really is like the Wheel of Fortune. Things that go down always come back up again. That is a good and a bad thing. Either way… it’s a thing. The bad thing about funerals is that someone you love has died. The good thing about funerals is that it brings you together with yourContinue reading “A Family Reunion and Another Funeral”

I wrote my Dad’s obituary! 😭

Being the first born child sucks ass! Not only did I arrange for my Dad’s cremation today, I was also appointed as planner of his Celebration of Life and also as writer of his obituary. I only recorded it so that I could type it quickly without looking back-and-forth at my little piece of paper.Continue reading “I wrote my Dad’s obituary! 😭”

Drawing it out… 😭

My dad has been in ICU for a week now. He has to a have a defibrillater implanted into his heart tomorrow morning, while his blood pressure stays at a very low rate. I’m worried. I am so fucking scared of facing life on Earth without him. I can’t stand the thought of losing him,Continue reading “Drawing it out… 😭”

Characters just fall off my brush!

This is a video of my artwork from 2016 to present.

“Baby, you’ve been prolific!”

Although I always try to see the good in other people, sometimes it is necessary to defend yourself with truth. The proof is always in the pudding. According to one person, (whom shall remain unnamed and unseen): “Since when do you work?! You’ve been busy sitting around and doing nothing while your husband works hisContinue reading ““Baby, you’ve been prolific!””

My Life is Crashing Down With My Daddy

Death is so final. I have always had so much hope that with modern technology and medical advances, that my dad would be fine. I’ve never been the best at handling terminal illness and death. And the death of someone close to me nearly destroys me. I’m still trying to deal with the loss ofContinue reading “My Life is Crashing Down With My Daddy”

Tarot Embodiment

The Tarot Embodiment… My very personal project! I have been working on this deck for over a year now. It is on my original artwork. It is shocking how scared a person (ME!) can be to put themselves out there. It is really a road traveled by only the fierce! 😚 I have no ideaContinue reading “Tarot Embodiment”

Inner Child Artist

Introducing Inner Child Artist, an art therapy deck to heal the wounded inner child. The Prototype This is the new deck I have been working on. It is called Inner Child Artist, and it is for healing the wounded inner child that hides inside of all of us. This is an art therapy deck thatContinue reading “Inner Child Artist”

I Drew Me and My Pops!

I drew me with my dad! And I loved it! I need to draw more of these because these make my heart sing. I need to find one from when I was a little girl, and draw it! How fun!!!! Step 1 And here I am with my mama!

She Thinks She’s a Fucking Kite

I drew my niece tonight. She didn’t call me for Mother’s Day. She has called me every Mother’s Day since her mom died, three years ago, but she didn’t call this year. And I know why… It doesn’t make me happy. I used to think she was a heroin addict, but I know now thatContinue reading “She Thinks She’s a Fucking Kite”

All Mother’s Are Slightly Insane

It’s true. We have to be crazy to have kids. 😂 Kids are hard. Kids are hard. Shit, mom’s are hard. Dogs are so easy… (Thank God for dogs!) At the end of the day, they all are WORTH IT! ❤️ I love my mama and I love being a mom. Happiest of Mother’s DaysContinue reading “All Mother’s Are Slightly Insane”

Once My Sister, Now My Muse

Art has gotten me through the hardest of times. When my sister died three years ago, I was at a loss. I mean a literal loss of everything, including my mind, and especially my mind. It was a “Tower moment.” The problem was that I had never even considered her death before and I justContinue reading “Once My Sister, Now My Muse”

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