2020 has been fucking eventful, to say the very least. It has been nothing short of dramatic; that much is true! We bought our first home and moved into it in mid- March, the very same day we were both laid off of work due to the Coronavirus pandemic. It has been very stressful, butContinue reading “Let’s Play Catch Up…”
Being the first born child sucks ass! Not only did I arrange for my Dad’s cremation today, I was also appointed as planner of his Celebration of Life and also as writer of his obituary. I only recorded it so that I could type it quickly without looking back-and-forth at my little piece of paper.Continue reading “I wrote my Dad’s obituary! 😭”
On the evening of my dad’s death, I was drawing. I was practicing facial expressions, like I do every night, and I usually throw them away, but this night was different. What I drew on this night reminded me of what I gave my dad for Father’s Day last year… it had similar faces, butContinue reading “Art therapy is the shit, (if anything is at this point…)”
My dad has been in ICU for a week now. He has to a have a defibrillater implanted into his heart tomorrow morning, while his blood pressure stays at a very low rate. I’m worried. I am so fucking scared of facing life on Earth without him. I can’t stand the thought of losing him,Continue reading “Drawing it out… 😭”
This is a video of my artwork from 2016 to present.
Death is so final. I have always had so much hope that with modern technology and medical advances, that my dad would be fine. I’ve never been the best at handling terminal illness and death. And the death of someone close to me nearly destroys me. I’m still trying to deal with the loss ofContinue reading “My Life is Crashing Down With My Daddy”
A collage of my family that I made for my mom… only the quote isn’t on the real one. But the quote sums everything up nicely. 😭
Not a day goes by that I don’t wish for just one more moment with her! My sister would have had her 48th birthday today. We celebrate nonetheless. It is so hard. It is so hard to live without her. It is so hard to celebrate her in her absence. And, unbelievably… ItContinue reading “Happy Birthday in Heaven!”