My dad has been in ICU for a week now. He has to a have a defibrillater implanted into his heart tomorrow morning, while his blood pressure stays at a very low rate. Iām worried. I am so fucking scared of facing life on Earth without him. I canāt stand the thought of losing him, but I know that I cannot be selfish and that everything is not always about me. But how do I live without him? Who do I call when Iām hurt, and I need the one, (the only one), who has always picked me up?
Heās always been my āgo to.ā My man. My protector. My reminder. My daddy.
So Tonight, Iām drawing out my emotions, not wanting the night to end. Because that brings tomorrow. And then itās here. And so is uncertainty, and all I know is that I am petrified. I am so fucking scared for tomorrow to come, bringing another surgery, because my dad wasnāt doing well today.
Drawing doesnāt even help tonight, as I canāt stop thinking of my parents, both trying to sleep amidst the noise of the hospital. God bless my mama. She needs to get some rest. And so does my daddy, but not too much!
And now I must lay my own head to rest so that I can deal with this emotional roller coaster again tomorrow. š³šā¤ļø Please say a little prayer for our grieving hearts.
Hi, I’m Shilo Lewis. I have a Bachelor of Science in Education and a Master of Art in Art Education. I taught third grade for 2 years and elementary art for 11 years! I LOVE art, and I have officially stepped out of the elementary art classroom in order to pursue my own art as a career. Currently, I strongly believe in the power of art and the Tarot for emotional healing and wellness, and it is my ultimate passion, as an artist, to teach others how to use these resources in this way. I create to connect. I connect to myself through artistic expression and I connect to others through hearing their stories and sharing my vision. Art has been my healing modality, and also the thing that brings me closer to the essence of who I am. I also love card decks, both tarot and oracle, and I have a huge collection! They speak seductively to the artist in me! I see each deck I own as an art gallery that can be carried around in my pocket and used to inform self-knowledge and guidance. I’ve been collecting decks for a while now, and I’m fascinated by the intersection of art, spirituality, and psychology that exists within them.
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